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Quoting someone who inspired me much,

you are happy if you say you are

I am happy. I believe that I am. :)

Not-So-Mellow

And then I realized that most of my recent posts have been so so so mellow. And I know that's a thing I got to find a way out myself. I overthink wayyyyy to much. My life is actually not that mellow. I even doubt most people know I can be that mellow. And, yessss, thanks to my introvert personality.

Anyway,

it's a brand new semester. It's frightening somehow. Yet tempting. It's been a week and my excitement hasn't got any lower. Good sign? Let's hope so. See?????? I already seem much brighter. My only hope for this semester is to be a much-much-much better time manager. Because last time I checked, I was suck at it. And, ah, I need to know my capability and not being over it.

P.S. I still have the urge.

So Far So Great

In short: I love February. Apart from the birthday thingy, February of this year is so.....great. It's not perfect just like everything else is but I love it.

I love how I finally get a chance to talk to my best guy after weeks (maybe months?), have good times with friends, receive two sweetest letters I've ever received, feel uh-not-so-bad on lessons, have good times with family, be able to manage househould money successfully (yes, I nailed it!), and just simply see that someone  daily.

Not to mention I'm going to Bandung tomorrow (ZUPER excited for this one!!!!!Just done packing couple hours ago but can't stop myself over checking things). And...ah! For some couple weeks there's something and let's just say this something is vanished. Alhamdulillah :-D

Unless something really great is coming (I really hope something is..)February will definitely be my favourite month of the year.

Will be facing National Exam in 44 days,

Shafira Anjani

Le Mur Des Je T'aime

" I Love You: The Wall is a wall in Paris that ..........has every language of "I Love You".                      "

Found this pic on 9GAG and what comes first on my mind was: I want to take a picture with you. There. Someday. Later.

P.S. Yes, I should be studying. 

(Just) Two Weeks

Hey, peeps!

I'm in the middle of Exam tryout week and here I am. Isn't it super scary how not ready (I think) I am?  

I've studied, anyway he he, don't worry ;-)

**

Anyway..my parents are out of the country for almost two weeks. Meanwhile, I got trusted to manage the money in the household. It's only been two days and I...HAHAHAHA *lost of words......* well, I think I do well. At least, much better than the last time my parents left me (I had to manage the household's money as well..) :-P

You know..I'm not good at speaking my words. Unless it's been memorized/written before/you know what I mean right.., words coming out from my mouth are most of the time absurd. And I just found a reason why people often laugh when I speak -,-

Where am I going? I just want to tell you that I miss my parents so much. I never said words full of love for some couple years because....I got too shy. Am I the only one? I remember when I was younger, it was so easy for me to tell them how I feel.

Being left behind also makes me thinking about other thing. I have plan to go to college outside Jakarta, and I'm nowhere from independent nor neat. I can't imagine how my life would be if my plan goes well (aamin ^^). Ok, I actually can imagine. I know how I will (yes, I use if-clause 2 because I know it's possible! teehehehe) be overslept for most of my early times, since my younger sister usually wake me up. I know I will skip breakfast if I am too lazy. I know how my room will be filled with papers here and there. Unorganized.

Tomorrow is physics and english, so..wish me luck?

Currently pursuing dream,

 πA

P.S. I found that my name can be written in such a unique way couple months ago. Quite cool, right? 

First

The video above is the teaser of my school upcoming event. I have always been excited when it comes to school events whether I take part of it nor not. However, I think this one is different..it's gonna be epic. So, why don't you be a part of Mafest2013?

For more info please kindly check the web http://mafest2013.com or the twitter @mafest2013




P.S. I don't know...happy new year? Tell me why the latest new year didn't feel special for me -_- By the way I will have my report book on Friday, super late I know, so...wish me luck! ;-D

Wish Me Luck?

Ohayu gozaimashu!

*got Japanese as new subject at my school....and yes, I know it's not morning but I forgot what good night is in Japanese. And also...I think words between these stars are way too much?*

BTW....I entered this giveaway by SabilaAnata and I really wish I could win. :-) 

It's been a while since the last time I won something. Kinda sad, huh? And the reason why I want to win this one is because I've been a fan of CottonInk (which is the prize....YEYY) for ages.  Winning this would be like water in a dessert.

And since it's Ramadhan, why don't I share the opportunity of winning to all of you?  You can read the detail about the giveaway here,  Also check the newest collection of CottonInk that might be inside your wardrobe in no time ;-) 

First

1st July! Wow.....time really flies, doesn't it?  In no time I'll be sitting in my new class with some new classmates.

Talking about new class....my last report book was super satisfying!  I did expect to be better than the previous semester but I thought I wouldn't make it this good.  I wasn't even in the top ten of my class and here I am.  Still...not the best but much better.  I would try to do much better for the next semester (since it would be matter for a senior student like me who wants to go to university, to be specific public university).


Two years ago no, even a year ago I had no idea what I would like to study in college.  I was quite interested in law (because of...him) but it's not my priority.  My parents wanted me to study sience.  Okay, to be specific they wanted me to study medical but that would be my last choice since I'm afraid of dead bodies (which I will definitely be dealing with if I study medical).  I was always be the one who's excited in every biology experiment, though..  However, biology is just not my thing.  I never even wrote anything from my biology classes. I never listened to my biology teacher.  I f I understand something before the test, that'd seriously be just coincidence.  I always study biology the whole chapter right before the test (technically not right before test, night before the test).  Some of my classmates will know it, that I will be such a pain in the a** when it comes to biology test.  Don't even bother to talk to me because I won't listen. :-) 

So...have I found out what I want?  I guess so.  I want to be an architect.  I can't draw (depends on how your definition of drawing, well my definition of drawing is the one that inspires people or at least makes spaces between their lips when they see it). My physic score is not great.  I don't even love physic.  There're some reasons why I want to be an architect. When I was in 10th grade there was a lesson in fine art subject to draw from three point of view.  I somehow loved doing that.  I didn't even feel like working on an assignment.  I feel like doing a challenge.  I even did some of my friends' works.  This year I did Dharma's as well :-P  it's like taking a break from my exhausting education life instead of working. You know what they say..

And I somehow inspired by Ted Mosby of How I Met Your Mother and Tom Hansen of 500 Days of Summer who both are architect (the figures, not the actors).  FYI HIMYM and 500 Days of Summer are two of my favourite things (in this case movies and sitcoms) in life.  I was like....maybe it's a clue.  Maybe I should try to be an architect.

After all the best thing in life is the unexpected, right? That's all for now.  I've got things to write but it's getting late and I think I'd better keep it myself for now.

Pellucida Zone

Today's exactly 15 days since the last time I checked his twitter account.  Sounds....easy?  I used to check his timeline for at least once a day for the past two years (or more?)....so it was hard at first.  Well, it hasn't been harder than I thought it would be...doesn't make it any easier, though.  The first step is always the hardest, right? :-)

I'm glad to be able to see a wider world now.  He somehow made me blind, I was super close-minded. Let's say that someone indirectly helps me moving on.  I love how I can think of someone and not feeling sad because of it. I love how I can feel hope which somehow feels like real hope. I love those butterflies in my tummy when I think of this someone. I'm not sure what it is but let see how it goes.

No longer hold on and stay,

Shafira Anjani

P.S. Note to myself: stop counting how long it's been since the last time you check it.

   + Don't mind the title, it's just my favourite new word. 

     ++ If you know what the phrase on the title means...it's not the reason I like it.

LEGO

No...I'm not going to talk about that toy (well, if I would it should be spelled leggo if I'm not mistaken?)

People say that love takes no reason. If you have any reason to love someone, it's not love. It's crush. That's what people say.  I agree and disagree at the same time.  I mean, yes, I agree that to be in love it takes no reason.  However, I think to stay in love, which is a completely different thing, takes a reason or even more.  One can love a person for a different length of time.  One could say that she would love someone forever, but would he?  I ever said that when I was elementary school, and you might've guessed this...I don't love him anymore.  It wasn't even love, I guess.  That kind of puppy love...

One would stay in love when she thinks it'd still be worth it, when she thinks there's still hope somewhere.  Eventhough it might be indescribeable.  No one would understand why she still holds on and stays for something so unsure.  They might say that they understand why she still stays, but deep inside they all wonder, "why?"

One sometimes thinks, "is he really the one?"  One knows that if he's not, God must've planned something amazing behind all of this.  There must be a reason why God made her able to stay for that long for someone like him.  One sometimes thinks that he's a clue, a path for her from God to her real the one.  One can't be sure.  One never wants to let go because she's too afraid.  One's afraid that the time she gives up would actually be the time when she could get everything right.  One's afraid that she can't love anyone the way she loves him.

One keeps thinking to find a time to move on.  To let it be.  Then...she thinks again, "so, all of my effort was for nothing? Completely nothing?"  So she starts to set a time.  A resolution?  When she accomplishes it, she would move on.  Again...this resolution couldn't be done without God.  So there is only one thing that she could do, like she have always been, waiting.

Time could change someone.  That time has come.  It wasn't something big but it somehow changes the way one thinks.  One's determined herself to move on.  She's trying not to care of the fact that her effort is going to waste.  One took a step....that would mean nothing for most people but for her it means a lot.  She knew if she didn't start, she wouldn't.  One took conclusion.  If God let her to be with him after her effort to move on, then let it be.  God's plans are always the best.        

P.S. LEGO = Life Eventually Goes On :)xx

Rewind

Bonjour!

I can't even believe it's almost a month since my last post.  Hehehe.

However.......you remember I did shooting for my short-movie project, don't you?  Well, if you don't, be my guess to read the post here. ;)

Why do I even mention it?  Because....we had to retake all of the scenes exactly last Wednesday.  I won't bother you with my personal story so I just tell you the point: the talent is now Prita; my chairmate.  She's experienced enough, though, she got in some comedy scenes in this....reality show? called Super Trap.  I myself have always missed her performances (I think the word is just not right..hmm).  Prita is so gonna kill me if she reads this (I don't think she knows I have a blog, though. :-P)

Guess who.....Prita!

The other talents were replaced as well....except for Ardi and Bayu.  We had Dharma and two of Ze's JHS friends instead.  Last week was holidays (except for Friday...*sigh*) due to seniors' national exams.  *Wish the best of luck for them, btw!* ehm....my point is, there were not many of the crews who could make it.  There were only four (Ayas, Prita, Ze, and I) instead of ten. Harder work to do than before.  Moreover Ze's friends were completely strangers to most of us (yeah...except for Ze, of course) so it felt awkward at first.  We couldn't even finish it (since we had to take all of the scenessss in a day) and there was only one camera, which was mine, so when I had to go home the shooting itself had to be done. :''


My only wish is it would pay off...someday :-) maybe Zayn could be my husband, that'd be more than enough but he had to erased all those tattoos, though :-( because I believe it'd worth all the efforts.

Trois

Joyeux anniversaire!
Qui? Mon blog! 

Enough with those france sentences I write with help of a dictionnary....

It's my blog 3rd birthday and I'm not excited. Yayness \―̈/ I should be excited, but I think I don't deserve the excitement. Because I didn't make many posts during this one year.

I hate having draft, because I rarely get it done. However, this year I made some drafts which I never have it done. And I'm talking about my blog.

So here I am trying to write a good post.

The time I wasted on everything but write a post on this blog makes me lost my excitement about blog. I mean...the skill on writing a good post. I may have not written any good post, but I know the difference. It's like I have lost my passion for blog which I know that isn't true. I still have passion for blog, but I forgot how to reflect this passion here, on this blog.

I can feel the difference, how about you? I hate how I have to post those lame posts. The posts that I wrote with no passion (or less passion at least) and effort to make it more...interesting? I wrote what I want without thinking how people are gonna see it. They may find it boring. And I don't like being boring.

I'm done with giving hopeless promises. I can only promise you one thing, I will try to write a better post. You know what they say: It's the quality that matters, not the quantity. ;)


P.S. The last sentence I wrote above reminds me of Qyanna.  She's my junior in 103 JHS whom asked me whether she should make a blog or not because she knew she wouldn't have enough time for it.  I told her to make one, because the quality that matters.  And I'm so embarrassed now.  How I told her to keep the quality of her blog when I myself don't do that. X_X

Adele

This week's been the emotional one for me. I don't know how to describe this week. Ah, wait....I know: complicated.

I know a blog is where all your writings can be seen by anyone. But somehow I don't care. Well, at least for now. I will write the whole story.

"Have you ever liked someone so much you just wanna lock yourself in your room, turn sad songs, and cry?" Rachel Berry-

I haven't. I think what's happened to me is worse. There's this guy that I like. We've never met. I don't know how he exactly sound. He's older than me. I know it's weird. You might think, "how can we like someone like that?" He doesn't know my existence. And it's been 4 years. People won't understand this feeling until they have one. You might think I like him from his look. Well, no doubt. But that's not the main reason. I love how he loves his mother. How he wants to stop saying bad words. How he doesn't smoke. How....perfect he is. At least, that's what I feel about him. I'm not saying he has no weakness. He's so lazy. He stays up late to play games. He rarely eats eventhough he's super skinny.

We might never talk. But there's this one feeling of mine that says we're meant to be. We love "How I Met Your Mother," "500 Days of Summer," and "a Rocket to The Moon." Or he made me like those stuffs he likes :"D

He's studying law now. Back to junior high school, I never liked civic. When I got in to senior high school (the same year as he started studying law), my civic's score became the best among of the others. Is it just me or people also do what their crush(es) do?

I know there will come a day when he finds someone he wants to be with. Well, that day would be months ago. I always stalk his twitter timeline...to know what he's been through. And I know he's in love. He had exactly the same feeling like I do. He didn't brave enough to even follow her. He always stalked her until one day she protected her account. Allah loves him. He gave him a way to get closer to her. And....he's officially taken by that girl since exactly last week. I found it out a day later, which was Monday. He's not the outspoken kind of boy fyi, but he put that girl's name after a love song lyric. How sweet........

I didn't just jump to conclusion btw. I searched their names and....the results told me that they're officially together. That made me thinking. My cousin's enganged to her girlfriend whose he's dated since he was sophomore. And now, he's a sophomore.

I don't really like law. But I want to go to the exactly law faculty at his university just to see him. Since he's in a relationship now, it makes me think, "it's time to move on." I still have a year ahead to see how their relationship goes. If it can last for that long, I promise I will move on. And I will also try to move on when I can find someone that's better than he is (and maybe end up with "someone like him" :). If that happens, I will probably try to get my old dream: to study in Paris. That thought reminds me of how much I wanted to go to Paris. How could I forget it? :'D

"Just discovered there's a level of sadness where happy songs are way more depressing than sad songs" -He

"Sometimes I say, “I just want you happy.” But deep in my heart I still want to be your happiness." -@TheLoveAdvices

P.S. Why is the tittle of this post "Adele"? Because her songs seem perfectly for me now ;'D (Make You Feel My Love, Someone Like You, Chasing Pavements). And...this week isn't that bad. I actually wanted to write the good parts too....but.......I know you know what I mean.

a Short and Late Post

Over a month........again and again. I'm the one to blame this time.

And happy new year! Sounds weird, eh?
My resolution for this is year is still the same. Eh.....no, no, I have a new resolution: go to science class for the next class term, and have a better rank on school and class. That's all. For the first new resolution, I have a problem........on physic. I really suck on it. I love math, but I can't do physic. I can't transubstantiation this formula into the other one, somehow I rarely can't. Or maybe I haven't done my best. Well, let's give a better shot this time! *talk to myself*

And uh.............I'm writing at my father's office, so I can't publish any photo. BU BU.........well who cares yeahaha.

I'll try to write better to for this year ;)


P.S. I don't know why, but I'm glad I often write a late post than publish a post from a draft which may have saved from a loooooooong time, but never be published until a looooooooooong time. Because the feeling when I write the rest of the post, wouldn't be the same feeling.

October Wish(es)

I am buffering two videos when write this. A new video by Greyson Chance (AW!) and a video of a friend.

Well, yeah it's already October, ha? Time goes very fast. Hm.

On twitter, everyone (or almost everyone) talks about October wishes. Hehe I want to share my October wishes too.

And here they are:
1. Be smarter
2. No remedial for tests
3. Be more diligent. (Boring? Yeah school is -_-)
4. Be a better blogger.
5. Publish smarter posts.
6. Be a better vionist. (Yes, I play violin badly)
7. Be a better sister, daughter, friend, grand daughter, and aunt (yes I have nephews&nieces but they're my cousins' children not my brother. My brother is still 18).
8. No more skip the pray.
9. Finish read Al-Quran a.k.a khatam.
10. Meet ny Idol. Ehem.

I have lots of wishes. It'll be long, I need to think about it for long time, and since it'd be a looooooong list I'm sure you won't read it (and care etiher). I think everyone has lots of wishes. Well, human never be satisfied.


P.S. I'm going to make a video clip for my cinematography assignment. And I'm so excited!! Wish me my team luck! :D

I failed...

How can I call a thing is story? When it has ending? How if it doesn't? Can I still call it a story?

I have something to tell you. But I don't even sure that it's a story because it doesn't have ending. But I wanna call it a story. So here we go.....

So sorry for the last post. I wanna tell you something, but it's an old story. Not an old story actually. It happened 6 days ago.

I woke up in the morning, got ready to go. I slept during the journey, but woke up in the middle of the journey. Got my phone, opened 28 SHS's web and shocked. I saw the announcement of the test.

I've already told you, haven't I?

Then, I opened the link and waited. While the file was opening, I wrote on twitter to tell my following which some of them did the same test. A file opened and I started to search my name. At the first time I dind't find my name.

I saw the timeline (twitter). There, I saw one of my friend, Sekar, mentioned me. FYI, I asked her before that, about "does she pass the test?" And yes she does. Beside that, she also told me that I didn't pass the test. Somehow I didn't believe her.

I stopped for a while, and told one of my friend, Hasyim, that the announcement was already there, on the web. I told him, wondered if he could help me find my name on the list. He told me that he saw my name, I didn't pass the test. I shock, but I didn't believe. I searched my name again on the list. And finally I found my name.

The picture below is captured by my phone.

It means
Math: 72
English: 76
Science: 62
Indonesian: 65
Social: 60

I told my mom. She liked me didn't believe it. We were on our way to 28 SHS (that was our plan, in case maybe the web'll be overload) and we tried to get there immediatelly. There, I saw the announcement. And the annoncement is the same like what I saw on phone.

*

If you think it's a story, it's not. Because it doesn't have an ending. No, it hasn't got the ending. But it'll get the ending. And I'll make sure, the ending is a happy ending.

Well, I hope so :)

P.S. I write this story as detail as I can write. Somehow, it makes me feel better. But if it doesn't work better for you, sorry. And congratulation to Sekar, Regina, Nadiah, Nadia, Ufan, and the others. They could pass the test. Wow they're brilliant!

Belum Selesai

Un udah selesai, Ujian Sekolah sudah dilewati. Tapi perjuangan belum selesai. Masih ada tes untuk SMA RSBI. Lulus saja sebenarnya belum tentu-_-


Ngomong-ngomong tentang tes SMA RSBI. Hanya ada sepuluh sekolah di Jakarta tapi cuma boleh pilih satu. Kalau sudah lulus tes harus masuk SMA tersebut. Jadi gak ada tuh istilah coba-coba. Dari sepuluh sekolah tersebut yang notabene semuanya adalah unggulan gue milih SMAN 28. Alasannya seperti kebanyakan orang lain yang milih SMA tersebut: sekolahnya bagus HAHA.


Dua minggu lalu, tepatnya hari Jumat 23 April 2010 gue bersama nyokap dan adik pergi ke sana untuk mengumpulkan berkas. Baru sampai di sana aja udah geregetan terdengar lagu geregetannya Sherina~ (-_-)


Waktu di sana gue benar-benar tidak siap. Gak bawa pensil, pulpen, penghapus, atau pun alas untuk LJK. Tapi cuma setengah jam kita sudah pergi meninggalkan SMAN 28 tuwh. Kebetulan kita (gue, adik, nyokap) datang cukup pagi, sekitar setengah delapan. Gak ada hubungan dengan kelanjutannya sebenarnya-__-




Jadi untuk ke depannya tolong doakan gua ya :D

UN H-9

UN tinggal 9 hari lagi!!!!
UN tinggal 9 hari lagi!!!!
UN tinggal 9 hari lagi!!!!
UN tinggal 9 hari lagi!!!!

UN benar-benar membuat mungkin hampir seluruh pelajar di Indonesia takut, gugup, dan sekaligus berusaha sebisa mungkin untuk mendapat nilai yang terbaik.

Untuk pelajar SMA, UN tinggal 2 hari lagi.
Untuk pelajar SMP, UN tinggal 9 hari lagi.
Untuk pelajar SD, UN tinggal 16 hari lagi.

Angka diatas bukan angka yang besar. Dengan cepat hari akan berganti dan........... sudah waktunya.

Karena itu mohon doanya untuk kelancaran gue untuk UN ke depannya :)

Posting kali ini adalah posting terakhir untuk bulan Maret 2010.

Terima kasih untuk para pembaca blog yang baik serta yang sudah mendukung blog gue. Tanpa kalian semua, gue gak bakal termotivasi untuk membuat blog ini lebih baik lagi.

Already Fifteenth :)

Helloooooooooo folks!!

Hmm I want to tell you a story, but before that.............. Let's imagine lest today is 22nd of February, 2010.

So here we are..........

Hey, it's no longer 21st of February.

The day's changed

So, why? What's so special about the 22nd of February?

Well, how to say it? 22nd of February is my birthday. Yay!!!!

Like the other people, I really glad when I knew it's already my birthday. I think about lots of thinks will happen today. But the most thing I though of is the second try out.

Yup, today the second try out (from the government) has started. And the first test was Indonesian languange. I could do it, but I don't really sure about the result. Let's hope I'll get a better score than before.

And........... yes a thousand times a lot of people uttered me for my fifteenth birthday. Thank you so much :)

I've already fifteen? That's surprising when I try to catch all things I've got. Lessons, experiences, my dearest people, etc.

Ohyeaaaaaaaah, beside that today's not only my birthday. Haha it must be. But what I mean is, birthday of people who I know.

They're.............

• Saras Swastika Ramadhani, my elementary friend, but I lost her contact :(
• M. Bimo, my classmate.
• Mr. Andi, no he's not my teacher he's my friend's father (Zahra Amaturrahman)
• One of the famous mosque in Indonesia........... Istiqlal

I got some presents. One of them I got it earlier. It was from my brother. What is it? Click here for the easiest way to see. Sorry I don't upload it hehe.

And then also got some things from Elisra&Zahra, my sister (Anggia Sekar Nurulita), my aunt, and Diva&Gistra.

*

I took some pictures today, and I'm wondering if you want to see it. In fact, do you? Well, if you don't you can close the browser or change the adress. But I hope you see and also like it

A capture of morning from window of my room



Really love this short message. Love youu♥

Actually, it's a picture of moon. But you can't see it, can you?
My face looks silly, but somehow I like it.
Wearing s t-shirt from Elisra&Zahra :3

I am older than before. So I have to do everything in a better way, to get the best result. I know fifteenth is so special, that's why Taylor Swift made a song about it. And I want my fifteenth will be memoreable (in a good way).

That's my story. Today was a wonderful and tiring day for me. What about you?

♥Shafira Anjani

P.S.: Uppsssss after done writing this post, I remember that I haven't done reading Harry Potter.

Before Read The Book

Something really great happened to me today. I got an inspiration from a friend. She's Nabila Cikita. Because of God who created her, I realised something really important. She told me that she read a book about pray, and she told me some about the books. It was really scary. I haven't read the book but I can imagine what it'll tell me. I hope, after I read the book I'll get more inspiration than what I've got now. I am nothing wihtout God. And I won't exist if God won't me to be exist.

Today, I prayed to God and I feel really peaceful. I felt like I was the one who talked to God. I felt like I was really talking my problem in front of God. But, when I opened my eyes, the view that I felt was gone. But I still can feel it until now. What a great feeling.

Whoever we are, we are nothing without God. Uh, it's silly to read it from an-almost-fifteen-teenager, but it is true. But, you know what? I was thought that I had been enough close to God. Really stupid. Really arrogant. A lot of people more religious than me and they I think never thinking like that.

It's never too late to be a better person.