The Word That Starts With C

Finally....

Hi, pals! It's been a "while" since my last post. And, no, this post wont be another worthless post to be read. Or, at least I hope so....

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Who never cheated?

For those who say "me!" must be one of the category:
1. You're smart as hell
2. You're afraid of God
3. You're lying
4. (Fill in the blank)....

I believe that there's only a few people that never really cheated. I mean...seriously? Never copied your friend's homework (it's also cheating, isn't it?) ? But I believe there must be someone out there who never cheated on anything. Yeah, I can see you nodding and whispering on your mind, "that's so me!"

What about me?
I didn't say I never cheated. I did, I was even kinda addicted to it. Well let me tell you the story of mine about cheated (on a test)...

I still remember the first time I cheated on a test. I was on 4th grade of elementary school. I was having social test about kingdoms in Indonesia. There was this number that asked me to draw the territory of Sriwijaya Kingdom. I knew the answer, I just forgot how Sumatera looked like. And I remembered there was paintings of some Indonesia's biggest islands on a side of my school. I had no choice. So I asked permission to go to the restroom to the controller teacher . And the restroom was fortuitously next to the paintings side. The rest of the story must be the same as what you're thinking.

That guilty feeling was haunted me for sometimes.

The other time... A friend of mine (don't have to tell you who, right? :P) made me cheated for several times. I forgot how this started. But I stopped that as soon as I was listed as one of the fifth grade students.

Several years later....
I was a student of 103 JHS Jakarta. JHS' students are much worse than ES hahaha no kidding. The first time I started to cheat on JHS was on the first Indonesian language test. Once again, I was influenced by friends. On this first grade, I had made cheating as my own habit. There was no test without cheating. There was only one subject that I'd try to do less cheating: religion (see, I still had moral (is moral the right word?)).

Time flew....I was already on 8th grade. And I was sorted into seed class. As a cheater, that situation gave me profits. And, yes, seed class is where smart people are gathered as classmates. And I think it was ashamed how still cheated when I got into that class.

Nothing could change my habit, until one day I read a post of this girl (re: Anita Dwi Putri) on her blog. She was on 7th grade. She wrote on her blog how she felt guilty when she cheated one number (if I'm not mistaken) on civic. And I was like....

Seriously????

You felt guilty for that one number? While I was satisfied enough to have a test with only five numbers from cheating. That post made me think. Only think, but didn't change anything.

Until on the 9th grade, I had this dream: to have a pure national test. So, on every test I tried to do less cheating than I did on my previous test. Finally, on the middle of the first semester I could stop that habit. And I had a fully pure national test's result. It wasn't big...or at least it wasn't as I expected it to be. But at least it was my work.

I (still) have cheated on test for several times.... But it was the remedial test. Yeah, I know it didn't change the fact that I cheated. And accidentally those several times were always on economic test. FYI, I don't like economic at all...

That's it...

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I hope this post would be as worth-full I expect it to be. I'm sorry if this post offends anyone, because I don't mean to. :)

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P.S. Dear Anita, I hope you're okay that I mention your name several times on this post. You really inspired me.