Adele

This week's been the emotional one for me. I don't know how to describe this week. Ah, wait....I know: complicated.

I know a blog is where all your writings can be seen by anyone. But somehow I don't care. Well, at least for now. I will write the whole story.

"Have you ever liked someone so much you just wanna lock yourself in your room, turn sad songs, and cry?" Rachel Berry-

I haven't. I think what's happened to me is worse. There's this guy that I like. We've never met. I don't know how he exactly sound. He's older than me. I know it's weird. You might think, "how can we like someone like that?" He doesn't know my existence. And it's been 4 years. People won't understand this feeling until they have one. You might think I like him from his look. Well, no doubt. But that's not the main reason. I love how he loves his mother. How he wants to stop saying bad words. How he doesn't smoke. How....perfect he is. At least, that's what I feel about him. I'm not saying he has no weakness. He's so lazy. He stays up late to play games. He rarely eats eventhough he's super skinny.

We might never talk. But there's this one feeling of mine that says we're meant to be. We love "How I Met Your Mother," "500 Days of Summer," and "a Rocket to The Moon." Or he made me like those stuffs he likes :"D

He's studying law now. Back to junior high school, I never liked civic. When I got in to senior high school (the same year as he started studying law), my civic's score became the best among of the others. Is it just me or people also do what their crush(es) do?

I know there will come a day when he finds someone he wants to be with. Well, that day would be months ago. I always stalk his twitter timeline...to know what he's been through. And I know he's in love. He had exactly the same feeling like I do. He didn't brave enough to even follow her. He always stalked her until one day she protected her account. Allah loves him. He gave him a way to get closer to her. And....he's officially taken by that girl since exactly last week. I found it out a day later, which was Monday. He's not the outspoken kind of boy fyi, but he put that girl's name after a love song lyric. How sweet........

I didn't just jump to conclusion btw. I searched their names and....the results told me that they're officially together. That made me thinking. My cousin's enganged to her girlfriend whose he's dated since he was sophomore. And now, he's a sophomore.

I don't really like law. But I want to go to the exactly law faculty at his university just to see him. Since he's in a relationship now, it makes me think, "it's time to move on." I still have a year ahead to see how their relationship goes. If it can last for that long, I promise I will move on. And I will also try to move on when I can find someone that's better than he is (and maybe end up with "someone like him" :). If that happens, I will probably try to get my old dream: to study in Paris. That thought reminds me of how much I wanted to go to Paris. How could I forget it? :'D

"Just discovered there's a level of sadness where happy songs are way more depressing than sad songs" -He

"Sometimes I say, “I just want you happy.” But deep in my heart I still want to be your happiness." -@TheLoveAdvices

P.S. Why is the tittle of this post "Adele"? Because her songs seem perfectly for me now ;'D (Make You Feel My Love, Someone Like You, Chasing Pavements). And...this week isn't that bad. I actually wanted to write the good parts too....but.......I know you know what I mean.